I need to apologise more
December 3rd, 2011
That’s because I am that self-righteous.
But it’s going to take a lot more to show people I am actually sorry.
Every word counts
November 28th, 2011
Every entry on this blog can be used to test how much a person knows me.
And now I am just feeling all warm and fuzzy over love, self-sacrifical love in the plot of american dramas.
Faith, faithless
November 22nd, 2011
There’s always this idea that faith and emotions cloud judgement.
But doesn’t faith translate to hope, especially when it’s unexplained.
Okay, so do people with faith make better or worse physicians? Uh, yes, this involves stereotyping.
Ultimate undeserving
November 18th, 2011
To begin with, medicine school or veterinary school is not what I deserve. It was never what I am entitled to. I was never smart, that damn smart, to deserve a place there.
Now, why am I complaining?
For the past half a year, I’ve been seeing what I will never have in my entire life unfolding in my face. And now what I want is more, as if I deserve it, as if I am entitled to it.
He says he will want to be at the top of the career ladder. Because after studying so hard, he wants to be able to get good money out of it, a good life.
God, what I want is love, fulfilment. To have enough to provide for others, myself. To live my life.
For fuck’s sake
November 18th, 2011
I am not your father or your mother.
You may come from a family, or wheresoever, whereby people make decisions for you. I am not the person.
Does it look like I am responsible for your decision-making or do I look like I care?
And stop asking me questions I cannot answer for you.
Morbid thought
November 15th, 2011
I know it will come a time when I will legally kill some one and be happy about it, because it is then I know I have levelled up.
Being self
November 15th, 2011
I am quite sure I’d be quite upset if I am to make dinner for friends who have plans afterwards with some one whom I am not entirely close to.
At the end of the day, I don’t want to feel dispensable or disposable. If I made time, I’d like to think I deserve an evening.
Likewise, it’s against my principles to actually agree to dinner with a person then agree with another person for plans after dinner.
Look, it’s not just about me/us. Others have feelings too.
Life skills
November 13th, 2011
In all honesty, I am convinced life skills is a lot about a person becoming what’s expected of him in society or a person learning to lead a double-personality life.
Quite often, we know, desirable traits for success are often not what it takes to be likeable amongst people. I guess being normal somewhat undermine your chances for success. I mean, after all, you’re just, uh, normal.
I’m guessing it’s a lot of, uh, premature mid-life crisis. Reconsideration on what are my ideals, reestablishing what in life am I going to stand for. There’s always such a fine line doing what’s considered appropriate, what’s socially acceptable, meeting set objectives and doing what is right, what you believe in, what is beyond societal life.
Damn it. Just shoot me already.
Pretentious much
November 11th, 2011
It seriously pisses me off.
And one of the reasons why I couldn’t really live happily with them.
At the end of the day, the pretentious kindness and politeness just puts me off.
It’s so evident you are selfish and you can’t give a shit.
And sometimes, I feel for them.
It’s a shithole.