You know you have no friends

by jon laa on September 21st, 2011

when there’s no one around for you in times of need and those friends appeared only when you gave up looking for help.

You know you did your part as a friend when you picked up a phone call of some one in de-stressed.

The interesting part is you don’t have some one to call after attempting to provide relief.

This is life. It almost sucks to be me, almost.

The sticky pad

by jon laa on September 20th, 2011

Being perfectly honest, you shouldn’t speak to some one who does not wish to speak to you.

For you to make conversation as if nothing ever happened is almost repulsive. Please do not make it seem like I have no capacity for forgiveness - you didn’t even apologise.

:) now, off you go.

The needy people

by jon laa on September 18th, 2011

I was asking a friend why did her relationship end and she told me it was because the other person involved was becoming more/too needy.

There’s this couple whom I know who are both perfectly dependent on each other in the I-am-super-needy-and-hence-will-die-without-you way. And sometimes, I think their ability and capacity to give each other what they need mentally, spiritually, psychology, is starting some kind of downwards spiral self-destructing chain reaction.

To be absolutely honest, to see a partner’s opinion swayed from one end of the the spectrum to the other (okay, I did exaggerate but not much) so as to provide some kind of support (or whatsoever the reason may be) is just disturbing.

And just so you know, I cannot call you friend.

I think of love

by jon laa on September 15th, 2011

I think of ah gong every time I think of love.

There was this particular friend who commented I seem very affected by his passing. It’s perhaps more along the lines of that his passing made me realise that everything I am left with are memories. I still want to keep them alive - there are too many virtues within him that keep me going every day.

Every time I fail as a person, there’s ah gong to think of.

Looking at time

by jon laa on September 12th, 2011

The windows are not even opened and it’s FREEZING cold. Plus all the sneezing is really not getting me anywhere.

There’s a quiz due this evening, biology essay draft and economics multiple-choice questions to finish and seminar for tomorrow. On top of that, there are worksheets for sciences too. Damn a lot of work, seriously. To pace myself a little, I shall aim to finish the quiz, draft and multiple-choice questions before I sleep tonight.

I think making food for people who are really important to you puts a lot of pressure on you. You don’t really know what to expect and you know that their opinion is going to matter. Doesn’t help when they are a freaking critic.

Just a little longer

by jon laa on September 10th, 2011

I can’t believe school is ending in slightly over two months.

Don’t want to look back and regret not working hard enough.

But at the same time, I can’t really get myself to propel forward.

Okay, shall aim to finish economics work this weekend and also to finish up the science essays.

Bet it sucks to be me.

At the end of the day

by jon laa on September 9th, 2011

You really feel like going, “God, God, are you there?”

You bet He is.

Damn lazy

by jon laa on September 6th, 2011

And can’t get out of bed :(

There’s mail!

by jon laa on September 3rd, 2011

I haven’t had any motivation to study, really.

It’s all like, damn it. There is a deadline and a test next week, excluding homework.

Damn!