Being horribly distracted means

by jon laa on May 27th, 2011

you miss out a lot of things that the teacher says.

I am not going to deny I switch off during certain classes because they bore me out and I just can’t find the capacity to stay concentrate.

There’s this super hugeass desire to sing properly again.

And it’s always disappointing to know how some christians can love some horribly.

Being of love

by jon laa on May 26th, 2011

It’s 17 minutes before class begins and here I am in school trying to understand what mathematics is about. And of course God is awesome cos there’s always help :)

Finding love within hatred.

by jon laa on May 23rd, 2011

I cannot tell you how impossible it is at this point in time for me to love mathematics. But nonetheless I am working on it. I realised it’s not so much that I can’t solve the questions? It’s the insecurities that really casts this shadow of self-doubt all over me.

Every mathematics class involves anticipating the lesson to end.

On the other hand, chemistry is awesome. Biology and economics are okay. English isn’t too bad. Mathematics is in dire state of hopelessness.

“Do you have any question?”

by jon laa on May 23rd, 2011

Once again, thank you Lord for awesome people :) what could I have done without them?

No, not brian.

Good people only :)

by jon laa on May 22nd, 2011

It’s amazing to meet people who are simple at heart. I thank God for them and I’m happy that previous misunderstandings that are now clarified doesn’t stifle our relationship.

It’s refreshing.

Urgh!

by jon laa on May 20th, 2011

10.5/16 for mathematics test today.

The feeling is, OMG WHAT AM I DOING.

Either way, tomorrow is mathematics day. Then I am going to view an apartment on tuesday and hopefully get to study a bit through the weekdays.

I’ve chemistry homework to finish and readings to do in advance, I cannot depends on classes.

For now, nothing is taught during mathematics class. Uh, absolutely nothing.

Pfft!

I don’t mean to be evil

by jon laa on May 19th, 2011

But I think you’re not going to make it.

:)

Damn mathematics

by jon laa on May 19th, 2011

I really didn’t think my mathematics is so lousy I can’t do the mathematics problem solving that was optional. I was hoping I can at least have some clue to do a question.

Extra miles

by jon laa on May 17th, 2011

There are actually a lot of things about home I have kinda forgotten or let it slipped to the back of my mind. It’s not like a new life, new beginning, kind-of-shit, it’s nothing so dramatic. But I am definitely so absorbed in whatever is happening before my eyes, whatever I can feel and hear that everything of the past seem to be so seemingly forgettable.

Either way, I am so glad I met G. I am so glad G talked to me. I am quite glad I sent G off to the hotel and offered him help.

I realised how I treat a lot of people I just met has a lot to do with whatever happened when J and I almost a decade ago. I think the results of whatever happened scarred so deep and that I cannot let myself ruined the opportunity of making a potentially life-long friend.

:( I am quite sad, generally.

Being homesick and not

by jon laa on May 14th, 2011

Prior to leaving, I thought I’d be homesick. But surprisingly, I’m least bit homesick.

I kinda forgot about everything back home. I like this strange, foreign feeling. I like to feel like I am in a place where nobody knows me and no one knows where I came from, who I was or what I was like.

Either way, school starts on monday. Every one says it’ll be fun. I can’t say I can’t wait. But I’ll hope I can’t wait.

Feeling a little tired, cold and perfect.

Good night :)