Uncle clutch

jon laa wrote on January 3rd, 2010, 4:36 pm

Okay. I bought a really old-school, uncle-ish clutch from braun buffel. Everybody is probably going to tell me how being branded doesn’t remedy it from being a fashion disaster of sorts. Boo hoo!

Either way, I fell in love with it once I saw it alright? It was the delicious brown leather I fell in love with but I couldn’t find it around orchard and ended up with the black one. There were really other more fanciful ones which I’ll probably buy because it looks damn cool. But they were either too expensive or didn’t have the colour that I wanted, so there. Nearly bought one of the more fanciful ones from bonia but I figured I don’t need something that loud.

I’d think it’s a fairly rational purchase. Didn’t get obsessed over it. Put everything I wanted in it inside and left it alone. Gonna throw it into my tote and going off with it. It’s kinda perfect in size, like everything I want to be inside managed to fit in. I would have added a book but there wasn’t enough space for comfort so never mind, I threw the book out.

The above three paragraphs are written to convince myself it wasn’t a bad purchase. And to convince others, perhaps.

:)

I think I am gonna meet somebody, whoever it may be, after work ends at the end of the week so I could go straight to mustafa and grab a mattress. I need to get things going. The current place is like totally choked with stuff that I need to move some away. And I have no motivation to move anything if I know I am not going to stay there. And I wouldn’t stay there if there isn’t a mattress. Thus, I need to buy one.

Make sense?

Bought a moleskin too. I’m gonna to write down every cent I spent and everybody I met for the coming year. I’m going to try to. I think it’d be nice to see where my money goes and it’ll probably be nice to see what kind of social life I have. Then I think I’ll be able to do a more constructive evaluation of how the year 2010 went.

By the way, I am trying to get God back into my life. There isn’t time for skepticism already. LOL! I figured I am not getting to where I’d want to go myself so investing some time in God may actually help me get where I want to. It’s kinda superficial, I know. But I know God knows better, like how everything work. The whole complexity of the situation and whatever not.

I actually have a bible in my room and I actually did read some portions of it through in the beginning. But everything just kinda boiled over, I grew exceedingly dishearten and shit happens.

Everything in life can be rationalised only because shit happens.

Now the plan is to note down the days I actually pray and read the bible, the latter being somewhat optional. The bible really feels like some self-help book at some point in time but it’s really long-winded so by the time you’ve read a substantial amount, everything just kinda doesn’t make sense anymore - either you’ve missed the point or forgot what you’ve read. It’s really complicated.

Now pray for me, fellow sinners. I really don’t want to end up no where in life. I can never imagine myself being a failure - I know I wouldn’t let myself become one - but the impending uncertainty and thought of a higher power just completely doesn’t help. Unless I find favour in both, of course.

Didn’t sing any pieces today, awesome. Did descending scales. It worked out better. Managed to work on vowels like ‘u’ and ‘i’, which I completely suck at. Need to find more balance, seriously. G major still floats my boat, for now. I’m still trying to fix things out.

Gonna go off now. Enough of word-churning. Gotta cut my nails too - such trouble.

Good night people. And enjoy the supposedly last three years of human civilisation.