The concept of self

jon laa wrote on February 4th, 2010, 5:40 pm

Bleah.

People who are too self-conscious, e.g. myself and probably michelle, probably don’t function well in performing arts.

I think most successful performers let things happen while some exert moderate influence over what is happening/will happen. But I’m attempting to make things happen, which seems to be the most natural thing to do, inculcated approach-to-life in me.

Maybe that’s why asians make good employees. We have problems doing nothing.

And we don’t believe things happen by itself, though they often do.

Bleah.

The whole emphasis on the need to emit self in caesari’s books was pretty much of an awakening - be it in music or faith. Maybe that’s why God has been, um, faithful in my senseless pursuits.

Because be it in music or faith, I need to let go. Of which I still fail miserably at.

Tsk tsk.

Bringing caesari with me to work, I hope he speaks more to me. It’s amazing how much influence you can exert when you’re dead, caesari. Though I secretly think people only started to listen to you more after you’ve died.

Morbid.