On long train rides

jon laa wrote on February 18th, 2010, 1:26 pm

And so I’m on my way to the psychiatrist feeling pretty confused. I think there’s something obviously wrong with me, I can’t/ don’t know how to elaborate further.

Even though romance and everything lovey seems to elevate my mood a little, I don’t think it is enough to fix whatever is wrong. I secretly think it is a lifetime of pent up frustration that is killing me so softly.

The worst of all is to find myself in the process of going, perhaps literally, crazy. I’ve found myself being unfair to some people, to those whom I value a lot as a portion of my life.

For those who have left, goodbye.

For those around, hang in there.

Of course for the one whom I’ve been spending a hell lot of time with, it has been terrible. Terribly unfair. Urgh, will try to make things better.