Giving in

jon laa wrote on March 7th, 2010, 1:52 am

The fact that I am considering other options shows I’m giving in. I don’t think I can take everything as they come and it will come a time when I need to make a decision of sorts.

I am so tired of trying. And I think it’s going to be a life-long journey of trying. But I don’t think I am going to be proud of it at the end of the day.

It’s a lot of pride and ego. That’s about it.

Maybe with elements of proving to others I can.

Gah. This is so meaningless.

Of course it’s cool and yada yada yada.

But I think sn has a point there. It may be better to get out of education asap, grow up and take control of the steering wheel.

Please let me go, thank you.

I’m already dying.