Doodling pleasure

jon laa wrote on March 28th, 2010, 8:54 pm

I think the truth is there are some people I love too much. I want them to go away because I know they aren’t agreeable with what I do, because it annoys and irritates them. They don’t have the patience for me. I affect their mood and I make them annoyed, irritated, by being who I am. These are the people whom I want to see move on in life without me. Because I know one day I will see them around with their achievements and I’ll be just as happy to know they’ve been there without me.

Then I flipped through old pictures and I realised how much I missed those days. It was not about how many friends I had then, or how popular I was. Nobody liked me, nobody really liked me anyways. But it was that I could be who I was. I could live my life without anybody faulting me, or picking on me. There wasn’t a need for change - I am respected for who I am. They know I do something because I am somebody - myself.