Delayed gratification

jon laa wrote on January 1st, 2010, 10:44 pm

There are probably some good movies out there I haven’t watched through because I couldn’t bring myself to sit through it. Of course that only applies to films I watch off the laptop screen. I wouldn’t forfeit my movie ticket fee just like that.

There were long dreary movies I regretted sitting through, like the one I caught with miao. It was just sheer disappointment, especially when we sat through it hoping for some sort of twist and change in plot to make a difference. That was a waste of time and money.

The hangover, one of the films I was already to give up on, turned out to be really awesome. Didn’t regret sitting through it (though not in a single setting). It was almost blatant, superficial, flat humour but everything started to change when the plot started to piece up together. It was very yummy, couldn’t describe it further. Go catch it if you can.

Gah.

I probably need to take a step back and learn to enjoy comedy. I realised I never quite enjoyed them. Like they are mostly somewhat too seemingly shallow for my liking. It could be more of that I never quite have the patience to wait for the building up and whatever not. And most importantly, there’re so many trash comedies out there that has totally spoilt my appetite for it. Boo hoo!

Nothing really worked out today. I didn’t run through concone like I planned to. I’m starting to see glimpse of what people meant by keeping it small and delicate through the passaggio before opening up again after going past it. I’ve been trying to sing through my entire range in a single take and it really takes some sort of alternation in placement, or whatever it is, to even out the voice. It’s beautiful, molto bella.

Figured dalla sua pace worked perfect, or seeming perfect, because of its high notes. I wouldn’t get anything out of my pathetic voice if I pushed at all. But working on other pieces, that seems more manageable, like se tu m’ami gives me more opportunity to press and sit on my my already pathetic voice. I’m trying to fix it though, it’s all in the mind. The good thing is, I realised.

Gonna attempt to take it down a few notches tomorrow. It’s really difficult because most of the notes lie within the transition between registers. I wish I have better control over it and better understanding of how my voice works. Gah!

More work, more work.

On the bright side, I’ve been getting a hang of coping with a fatigue voice. I can’t decide if it’s my vocal cords that are tired out or is it that I’m developing the necessary muscles for me to sing. It could be either. But what really pleases me is that I can still speak and reach to the bottom notes fine - that’s in many ways a great pleasure.

:)

By the way, I figured I may be thinning my voice out too much for dalla sua pace. Obviously it sounded fine besides being a little small and light. But I don’t think that’s at all healthy? It’ll probably come a point in time when I’ll hit a dead end again. Better start taking note of myself and better not attempt to go too high and shallow myself out too much.

Find balance, find control.

And so I did not party and did not drink, not yet at least. Pretty well done there.