Broken connections

jon laa wrote on January 2nd, 2010, 11:57 pm

It’s really upsetting to hear people saying, “I’m starting to hate him.”

Boys afternoon out was almost a complete disaster. There wasn’t a direction, motivation, destination, plan, which is disastrous by the standard of non-spontaneous people. The end result was that we completely ditched the dude who needed company and went our own way entertaining ourselves while the poor dude followed behind. By the way, there were only three of us.

I suppose we’re all different people and it’s really difficult to get frequencies to meet. Meh! The different backgrounds and whatever not. Of course there are some who deal with it better, who can identify with a more varied spectrum of people.

:)

And shopping is damn personal. Like varying opinions and whatever not. It takes awesome, crazy people to have fun. Probably takes a few trips out before we warm up to each other style and preferences before we know what to do and how to react. Pfft. It was much more constructive when I did my shopping myself.

The downside is that I found something I’d really like to get.

:)

I really need a project of sorts. Like, something to work on about myself. I thought I’d do a photo log of the entire year but it doesn’t help that some people don’t like taking pictures and it doesn’t help that I can’t bring myself to ask some people for a picture. I’ll still attempt to keep it going though. It’s good training of self-confidence, so I believe.

Didn’t sing much today. I was attempting to work no vocalises only - like vowels. But I realised I should be working more on descending scales than on the tricky passaggio region. Damn it, I should have realised already.

And so tomorrow will be my last day to work on it. I think I’ll really want to iron on my confused notes real fast. Guess it’s not going to happen anytime soon though.

Gotta be back early tomorrow, sucks. Back to no internet days. Meh!

By the way, having no preferences, ideals and opinions is pretty annoying. I don’t think we actually not have one but we attempt to not have one. And what’s even more annoying is that we can’t work things out democratically because there’s no basis for any sort of rationalism. My goodness. It’s also probably going to be your loss, you gotta put it up with all the shit people throw at you. I’m sorry dude.