Um, whatever

by jon laa on December 29th, 2010

Quite disturbing to be seeing somebody and to be mentioning it here. Because it’s probably going to be fleeting no matter what. And so I was pondering if it should be classified under blessing or not. Nonetheless, happy.

And I realised there are so many things I suck at and a few things I am good at. The few things I am good at earned me some respect. But what I want is to be respected for who I am and maybe what I am trying to do.

Dinner with shan miao and carrie, can’t be better.

Finding comfort and peace

by jon laa on December 26th, 2010

I’m quite certain it’s not about what’s on the outside, what’s the things you do or what you have on hand that really gives you comfort.

There’s so many doubts and self-doubts going on. I had fun but pleasure isn’t a gauge of how things are going to be.

Feels out of place, unloved and unwanted.

Peace and peacefulness

by jon laa on December 20th, 2010

I think of the greatest thing ever in the world is peacefulness. And it’s so different from, peace itself.

And admist all the vet school turmoil, I need to find God.

Muffin call

by jon laa on December 16th, 2010

Mum woke up late today and she commented muffin didn’t wake her up. Either way, I did hear muffin bark at about half past five. It’s kinda interesting muffin has a responsbility at home. I wonder if she feels any different.

Yesterday was a totally evil, bad-ass day. I’ve no details for you.

Plans to apply for further studies by the end of the week isn’t taking off, sucks. Looks like I need another week to it.

And I’ve decided I need quilter’s come away death.

Beef & chocolate cakes

by jon laa on December 14th, 2010

11 Dec:

molten chocolate cakes. Bimbo shan came over and we chilled at my place. Dead tired, was tucked into bed as we talked.

13 Dec:

garlic minced beef penne in miso. Dad came back and fuss over scratch marks on the door, on the side that’s inside the rooms. Probably means she was locked in either deliberately or by accident, which is just dumb to begin with. Pea brain of humans. Either way, the door wasn’t even new, it was old and it came with the unit.

Didn’t manage to work the deltoids out as well. Did bench press at 17.5kg, quite a break through already. Going to take a break on that to rest the shoulder. It hurts.

Today:

gonna work on biceps on the ez curl bar, hoping for 8.75kg for this week. Maybe triceps too on the pull down machine too, we’ll see.

Must pass examination certifications to jason for scanning.

Oh, han is weird. I think he’s full of secrets. Dark secrets. Maybe sorcery.

Deltoids workout

by jon laa on December 13th, 2010

I think my shoulders are damn cui and so I’m going to work on my deltoids despite the “issues” I have with them. Urgh.

I shall write more later :)

Birthday greeting

by jon laa on December 11th, 2010

Bombed with birthday greetings through the night while I was sleeping. It’s all over facebook and I’ve been trying to reply them one by one. And sometimes, it’s so insincere to be saying the same thing to everybody. Eh, But I don’t have that many things to say to each of them!

Urgh!

Poor and hungry

by jon laa on December 10th, 2010

On my way home after meeting up with duncan. Goodness, he sure looks miserable. I think it shows on the face.

This morning tim tan spoke to me about his problems about being cheated and all. Uh, am I really such a good listening ear? It’s unexpectedly flattering.

But I’m still on my way home alone and waiting to make my own dinner.

There’s this funny feeling.

About relationships

by jon laa on December 9th, 2010

Jason had 15 shishamo at hanabi earlier over did. And 10 grilled shitake mushrooms. Quite excessive. Then we shared four sashimi platters, mostly of yellowtail and octopus, which were quite a delight.

:)

Then we talked about tim. And how I’m not considering meeting him again. And I talked about alex.

And david just told me he might be posted over to my work place.

:) yay, I love tonight.

Being self-full

by jon laa on December 9th, 2010

There was this guy who posted on facebook about seeing a hummingbird in his condo. I commented that it’s a flowerpecker because I remembered reading we don’t get a hummingbird here. Either way, he replied he thinks he can tell if it’s a hummingbird when he sees one.

:) and I told him seeing doesn’t help cos they look the same but flowerpeckers don’t hum. Probably should try listenining instead.

Guess he really doesn’t like me. Never mind. It’s such encounters that really exposes oneself.

Gym-ed today and managed to work the biceps out. Didn’t manage to do much. Yesterday’s tricep work out was good. I need to work on my abs/chest a little more.