Fitting in

by jon laa on November 28th, 2010

I think somehow somewhat I’ve difficulties fitting into the general crowd. People don’t really get what I am trying to say, people don’t really get my jokes, people don’t really wanna talk to me.

Okay, the last isn’t really an issue because most people don’t want to talk to anybody new.

But I think such feelings either surfaced from self-realisation or oversensitivity. I just need to figure out which.

The unfortunate son

by jon laa on November 27th, 2010

You know it sucks when your parents refused to hire a domestic helper when they could afford it. Then it gets especially annoying when they start complaining about having to do housework after working hours.

And so they are saving money to make their lives more miserable, and in turn mine miserable.

Fuck it.

Just goodness damn retire or get a damn maid.

Else, throw your son out of the house. I am pretty much okay with living alone, as proven before.

Fuck, fuck, and fuck.

Going for training tomorrow. This house is not livable.

Dim sum

by jon laa on November 18th, 2010

I really crave for dim sum but it’s so difficult to get a good serving of it these days.

I know dim sum is really about having some dishes to nibble on while gathering, not something you should dig into and get all bloated about, but the fact that they are such tiny little things make me wanna eat more and more and more of them.

And so, I can never avoid a non-buffet dim sum. Lotus leaf rice would have cost at least three bucks on average, and a serving of haw gao and siew mai probably at about the same. That will be enough for me to eat a lunch set at a cheaper restaurant.

Urgh!

Being affected and really affected

by jon laa on November 3rd, 2010

I looked through old pictures and see what life is about. I think life is, all in all, about living in a place, packing up, leaving for another. It’s kinda like a cycle of sorts. Maybe it’s only for the growing up years but that’s certainly the impression I get.

On the side note, blogging on my macbook pro instead of blackberry or asus is very liberating.

And I don’t think I am so disturbed by that. Maybe I’ve seen so much of those I no longer really care. Like the commander very aptly put it, it’s what you bring out of it. I don’t think I am going to build any awesome wonderful relationships just like that but there are some which are pretty awesome.

For example, meeting up with my teammates from my time spent on the island was actually pretty awesome. Everybody except for three came - 1 who was overseas, 1 who had duty, and 1 who was barely around during our stay there. haha! The last time we met up together was a year back and it was a chalet and almost everybody turned up. It’s kinda strange cos we aren’t even that close to begin with. I guess the fact remains are really appreciated each other and we didn’t want those memories we left for each other to be forgotten just-like-that.

And of course one of the guys had to agree I would be a burden, if given the opportunity.

You know God, sometimes I want to break into tears. I can’t explain why either.

Being affected, and really affected, by those three chaps who are charged for murder.

You know, I am not praying for the dead. I am praying for the dying and I hope it will not be four deaths when it could have been just one.

Lord :(