One annoying morning

by jon laa on June 29th, 2010

Did a quick search this morning and realised I’ve no idea where my external hard disk is. Damn pissifying. It wasn’t that long ago when I last used it and I remembered leaving it somewhere outside. Either way, it’s no where to be found in the boxes or drawers. Pissed.

Then, uh, there’s this whole I’m-not-going-to-be-ordinary thing which is putting me off because I really don’t know where to place my bets on. It’s the spirit of believing I don’t really have. And being oh-so-skeptical I don’t think I’ll ever decide where to go/what to do.

Now an opportunity presents upon itself and I think I should take flight even though I’m fairly comfortable. That’s what I say now. Before long it would be, I’m fairly comfortable so I shouldn’t take flight.

The whole point is I don’t think I can ever decide if I want to forgo opportunities that presents itself. I don’t wanna be seen as a loser either. Oh God.

Bad, bad temper

by jon laa on June 28th, 2010

It was just wrong beyond wrong, so I believe. I don’t see why people need to put up with my temper or attitude. I know its bad but something must have triggered it - no?

I think admist all the confusion, I don’t need people to state the obvious. It has reached a point in time when it’s annoying to have some one repeating himself like a spoilt tape-recorder without solving the problem at all. Do something else that will work, please?

Urgh.

Perspectives, ideologies, balance. There’s nothing more than experimentation I need. I’m sure everything will iron itself out once I figured what I want, what is comfortable and what I’m standing for.

Oh well. To the doctor’s office, tiring.

Listening always

by jon laa on June 26th, 2010

Omg, never knew horns come in different pitches. That was an awesome minor second. Nonetheless, still damn annoying.

CD box set

by jon laa on June 26th, 2010

I’m waiting for my pavarotti box set to arrive and I’m quite sure it’ll make me very poor. And there’s another box set of his I’ll like to purchase, which I’ll have to wait. I realised I love joan sutherland a lot too. I don’t really care how limited/unpleasant her high Fs are - I really don’t!

And of course there’s karajan who I can’t resist. I’m sure these CDs will go a long way.

For now, I’m feeling miserable. Urgh. Diagnosises are such horrible things.

:(

Of unexpected deaths

by jon laa on June 19th, 2010

I think one of the thing you learn to face as you grow up is death. And sometimes I wonder how is he doing in after-life and if he has perfect knowledge of what is going on. If he is around, if he knows.

Pity, such pity. I’d always remember you for setting up a table and bench for me to have my meal because I couldn’t work. There wasn’t even a need when I could manage just fine without a table. And what you said will never be forgotten. On that evening, you touched my heart.

I don’t think it make a difference to me if you are around or not. But the fact that you aren’t anymore makes things different. I wish you were here so we didn’t have to deal with this.

It must have been difficult for every one who loves you out there. And I hope your death would have made a difference and you wouldn’t have died in vain.

Lord :(

Either way, I hope I wouldn’t have to deal with people divorcing. That would mark the beginning of another phase in life.

Dear Lord.

Fucking assholes

by jon laa on June 17th, 2010

First, you can fuck yourself if you don’t wanna reply my sms.

Second, do something about your phone if you can’t fucking hear it all the time.

God.

Performing arts

by jon laa on June 15th, 2010

There are times when we imagine far beyond reality. But isn’t imagination what brings us beyond what we really are, and to where our yet-to-discover potential always lies.

Of course success rate is low, I can’t imagine how many people tried but failed and went unnoticed. This are the group of people we ignore, perhaps deliberately to break off reality.

Guess we would have to keep going. Never stop running, so they say. Gonna be more literal about it, about time I pick up my life. Yes, running and kayaking. I’d so love to dragon boat if not because it’s a team sport. And I wouldn’t consider it if not because how difficult it is to find a constant kayaking buddy.

:)

And you know, I really hate inconsistent people.

Dear God: :(

The asian living

by jon laa on June 13th, 2010

Living without a wok is impossible. Like a skillet is never quite the same as a wok. And now I’d say the wok is the spirit of asian cuisine, so I believe.

Dad is going to get a wok, the iron kind that can be used for generations. I’m so glad there is dad. I am so glad there’s dad who would season a wok. I am so glad I’d have a wok hand down to me next time.

Yes, I believe good kitchenware is meant to be passed down from generation to generation. It only gets better.

On the darker side, I really don’t like all the investments that is going on.

On the even darker side, I don’t understand why mum has to wash everything up. Like, I just need some time to get everything cleared.

Yes I dread washing, that doesn’t meant I don’t do it.

Finding security

by jon laa on June 10th, 2010

I think one of the worst thing some one can do is to be unreachable on his mobile via text. It’s not so much that he’s busy but more of being oblivious to having received a text.

Urgh, that places him to being of not much help in times of emergency.

And I think the social etiquette behind usage of mobile devices are still pretty undefined.

Bidding goodbye

by jon laa on June 9th, 2010

I think I really can’t bring myself to stay here. There are so many times I would tell myself it isn’t so bad and we have some really nice people but that’s so not true.

The conclusion is that we are such different people it doesn’t make sense that we try so hard to live together anymore.

And if there’s research work to do, trust me I’ll stay. There’s nothing more I’d like to do than research.

:)