Unbroken connections

jon laa wrote on December 24th, 2009, 11:48 pm

And so it was some kind of depressing days for him. I wouldn’t have continued speaking to him if not because it has gone unpleasant enough for me to trigger some cause for concern. Either way, it’s getting better - no cause for concern.

:)

Did christmas shopping and realised I shouldn’t be spending that much? I ended up buying a gift instead of two, which is really unnecessary yet necessary. I don’t know whether I should be forfeiting somebody’s gift for another or not. I had enough budget for two items, both of which are sold out. And it was impossible to find anything to fit the bill - either in substance or monetary restrains.

Boo hoo!

It was rational though it seems not. I figured it’s probably necessary to credit those who stood by during the darkest times. Oh well. I’m sure we all have our lives and one day everybody will move on without me. Perhaps some will make a detour to check on me while others may have forgotten about me already. There are some who came back, saw who I was and decided their pursuits outweigh our relationship - the painful reality.

Maybe that is why it’s all about giving. It’s never quite make sense to stay with somebody. There would be some point in time where agendas crash or burden arises. It’s part of the game. It’s probably also where principles and values in life set in.

:)

And there are people who forget me till they saw me on the road one day, decided to horn in the midst of their journey to yet another destination. They called me on the mobile then, attempted to start a conversation, which was very sweet in itself. Of course me being unsociable and terrible with such awkward situation couldn’t live the conversation enough to create sustenance to its life. Farewell it was. I attempted to salvage it by dropping a text message after I was done with what I was at. I do care, as much as I don’t seem to show it. But I attempted. Peace.

If you didn’t receive anything from me, I’m sorry. I couldn’t have bought anything more than I can afford. Urgh.

If you did receive something from me, please go in peace. Don’t fuss over it. Tsk!