the best thing

jon laa wrote on April 19th, 2009, 12:19 am

fall in love or fall in hate. get inspired or be depressed. ace a test or flunk in class. make babies or make art. speak the truth or lie and cheat. dance on tables or sit in the corner. live in divine chaos. embrace it. forgive yourself. breathe. and enjoy the ride.

and

“the surest way to corrupt a youth is to instruct him to hold in higher esteem those who think alike than those who think differently.”

- nietzsche

make babies or make art? i am so going to do both! just wait and see. hahaha.

got both of the above off some friends’ blogs, thought they were interesting.

the best thing i did today was to delete somebody off my msn list and to follow up with removing all chat history between us so i can’t get to open a conversation window. i can actually do that via the history and i thought i need a clean cut from that person, and most of the people around me actually.

i am highly intrigued by strangers and by people who are difficult to understand, sounds like edward from twilight. but either way, i realise it is terribly draining on the soul. decided to forget it. there is no reason why i should be reaching out and opening myself to people whom i am skeptical of, people whom i am not sure if they love me and people whom i cannot be trusting at all.

and so, bye bye acquaintance. i really enjoyed the many conversations we had together but i felt it was pure stupidity for me to do whatever i did. talk about being dumb nice. and like i said, it will be the last time and you know i will probably avoid you because of your inability to reassure me about your person and the friendship we hold.

fyi, i did send a disclaimer. the reassurance did not come, anyways.

moving on from that, i did lots of singing today. kinda. and i called it singing coloratura, commando style.

gotta work harder, trying to even out everything and trying to keep my throat open and clear. for whatever reasons i have, everything is moving, upwards, and it is getting annoying.

didn’t practise the violin, i ought to be stoned. but really, i am losing heart. but i am telling myself i have to go on, it is just that little bit more to go.

feeling tired, will have to go now.

brighter note, everything is falling into place. i feel some kind of structure and form condensing now.