Relief

jon laa wrote on June 26th, 2009, 10:39 pm

Maybe God plans occurrences in such a way whereby what happened yesterday is constructive to now.

Like how edward said something I never did fully agree with, because there I have one example which did not fit into his statement, a few nights ago. But upon further pondering, I only have one. It was a good point he made, I’m glad amongst everything I forgot I remembered that.

There are some things I’d like to learn better though, and I am failing badly at it. I wouldn’t deny it has a lot of do with me.

One of which includes letting go. There’s been a fair bit of emotional baggage and I’m glad some people have totally walked out of my life. Little depressing, I suppose, but I like it that way. Or rather, we like it that way. There wasn’t a compromise and we couldn’t reach one.

Now, at this point in time, I’d just like to fall in love and romanticise my misery. I’d like to see what love can unfold and fill myself with the energy from the unpleasantness of loving some one and having somebody to love.

Looking at myself now, this point in time, I realise I do love the wrong people. Enough of those dirty looks already, I’ve come to realise.

I don’t know how I can, have been, putting up with all these nonsense and it’s time I learn to let go and move on to a new lease of life.

No, I think I’d like to put an end to it and bring them all to my next phase of life.

:)

Our past come together to constitute to our present.

Many thanks to all who heard me at some point or another, it actually did help.

Many thanks also to those many who have decided to stay away from me. I know I can be, or am, too radical, of which I am not sorry for.

It’s never about man.