Odour

jon laa wrote on May 26th, 2009, 11:40 am

“It takes a lot of courage not to try to repeat what you did yesterday knowing it was successful.” - daniel barenboim

Okay, I know the above definitely cannot be applied to me given I was not successful yesterday and I can’t remember myself being successful.

Instead (of being successful), I am so unsuccessful at being successful that I would like to twist the neck of my violin off still. That is a little depressing. Probably means I am annoyed and that I am not getting anything right and am not in the right state of mind to do it and am probably never going to get it right if this persists - vicious cycle.

F***!

Going for another break (when life screws up, run away).

Given my compulsion, I will actually have another go before leaving. Either get there or die trying, so as long as I am alive you know what I am doing. No, not dying yet.

Gotta go off now before school ends and everybody floods the neighbourhood gym. The good thing about going to the gym after practice is that I already stink (yes, practice is actually physically, and emotionally, demanding) and it makes sense to go to a stinky place so shower once instead of twice. Conservation.

Rats. I am suppose to be writing about my angst this entry and my unexpected encounter in the gym yesterday yesterday. Maybe the ns bug is getting to me before I am there. First step to prepare for ns, turn blond.

By the way, my co is lum hon yuen. Not excited, really.