Moves

jon laa wrote on July 4th, 2009, 9:26 pm

Is there actually a difference between remembering an unpleasant incident and bearing grudges?

The idea of forgetting somebody’s action and letting it exert absolutely no influence on oneself is naive.

I suppose I somewhat forgive and forget. No, I can’t really remember what has happened until I take a few seconds to ponder over it. But that does not mean I have forgotten the unpleasantness inflicted upon me, nor does that mean I am actually not affected by that person’s action.

Our past constitutes our present, I still believe.

Didn’t do much for the entire day but slept and youtube a lot. In fact, I think I am getting a bit of a headache from the excessive opera. Gah! The audio compilation of tenor high Cs and above are totally crazy and listening to rockwell blake for the entire evening didn’t help. I haven’t gotten past the first page of search listing even though it’s already past 9pm. I should be thankful it’s mostly rossini though, I don’t think I can take that much of verdi.

Last session of kayaking tomorrow, guess I should be there even though I’m hardly interested. Ultimately it’s a course for the piece of paper for me, I don’t think I’m ever going beyond the forward/backward paddling and occasionally changes in directions. Okay, I figured I’ll go for some rolling classes and that’s about it? Unless I can manage to do a few rolls. I don’t think I need more classes but I figured need more sessions to try it out.

Gah.

And obligatory slavery starts on thursday? I actually woke up this morning trying to recall what day it is and realise it’s my last weekend to go. Not so pleasant a thought but I wasn’t awake enough to register.

Decided to go weigh myself to check on my weight so I could blog it. Guess what? I’m 60kg. I did pee before I weigh myself, my last meal was almost three hours ago and I’m feeling hungry. Never felt better before, but I would like to be 60kg for the next few days. In fact, I may wanna up my weight a little.

Gonna take some shake, do some pull ups/push ups (oh shit, kayaking tomorrow?) and probably have some goulash with pasta.

Remind me I’m enlisting again, I’m enjoying myself too much too care. This is call being wholehearted.