Maybe

jon laa wrote on April 16th, 2009, 2:26 am

It is amazing how I haven’t been beaten into a pulp since the beginning of my days. And most of the bullying encountered actually started from home, like my cousins were the bullies. For some reasons, the only son/child tends to get most of those.

And my sudden outburst of participation in sports could be to prove to others that I can do just fine in them. Probably also to prove that my pursuit in music is a choice and a deliberate, calculated choice undertaken. My attendance for choir as a cca was hideous, which was my choice then.

Most people don’t see themselves in a greater picture, I feel. Like somewhat undermining themselves, which is just depressing. The hindering of growth and the unexplored possibilities.

Don’t know why I am even bothered, but looking at them living their lives as mundane, synthesized individuals just put this little grief in me.

It makes so much difference if people could give themselves a chance to hear themselves, what they want to do with life and what they want out of life, then to suppress the inner surges and leaving them in isolation. There is so much more to achieve than the social norm.

Maybe we are all cynical, in a way or two. That somewhat the fairy tales and disney fantasies we have known so well is a world too far away.

Break free, people. Do you actually hear me?

ETA:

If you do not get there one day, at least die trying.