Going away, off, out

jon laa wrote on November 27th, 2009, 7:25 pm

Gah.

It comes to a point, I realised, when I should just exit others’ selfishness altogether.

Been too nice, too meek and too difficult to resist. I suppose being kind means being a temptation to the many selfish idiots out in the society who desires to devour you in a single serving.

Then I realised how some opinions are not worth taken into consideration because they are baseless. For that, the source from where such comments surface is of no value to any - worthy to be cast out.

It’s been months before I started to realise how foolish I could be to take him, or his words, or his actions, or any other thing from him seriously. They are almost entirely bias and literally, literally, worthless, of no significance.

Look, I’m not the only victim.

Now I need to resist the temptation to mock him. The stuttering and protruding jaws which made him look somewhat like a piranha attempting to speak mandarin.

I wouldn’t move on saying I don’t care. Besides that I did care, I still believe we ought to be sensitive to our surrounding and occurrences of any event - pleasant or unpleasant - because they rooted from us in the midst of society. Because there probably is something to take out from there.

Because I did care, I realised I realised a lot more about myself.

Been too critical, too anal retentive. It seems like that I build my life upon a chess board than a box of chocolates, or bed of roses for that matter. Every move, decision, consideration seem to surface to build a better, perfect tomorrow which I can’t seem to convince myself will never condense before my eyes within the days of my life. Of course I take risks but that is only after evaluating every single possible outcome, consequence, and implication.

And we all know this is all possible not because of who I am, but what I am born into.

Perhaps we, or perhaps just myself, need to be more real.

And contrary to their (untrue) opinion of who I am, I need to be less tactical.

Boo hoo!

p.s. viperfish may be a more appropriate metaphor. Go wikipedia - I’m sure you’ll get it.

This post was originally written on November 25, 2009 at 2:46pm.