Bubbling

jon laa wrote on March 10th, 2009, 11:58 pm

There is this bit of frustration bubbling within. Like how the tenor aptly put it, “we’d all really be better people if we had more unrushed time together with our loved ones.”

I haven’t entirely experienced the with our loved ones part, but I definitely need more unrushed time. There isn’t the strength within me to go slow, to take the time I need and let myself develop into what I see in myself and what others see in me. It is difficult because in this pressing society, it is about how much you have achieved on papers. Extremely unfortunately, I have fallen into the trap.

But I figured it will be a good lesson. I am exceedingly glad that that is only a fragment of my life. I have to say that I have great awesome teachers who decide what is best for me. Of course there are some who don’t, but they aren’t anywhere less than good.

Moving on from all that, this week isn’t any different. There isn’t enough practice, I need to work on it.