Boorish

jon laa wrote on October 16th, 2009, 4:00 pm

Finally found the right word for the title. Feels satisfying.

I don’t think they are being fair to me, honestly. Neither do I think they care.

Of course they are lying, they aren’t afraid of me. They just want to avoid me because they can’t so easily inflict their authority upon my poor miserable soul. In short, I am useless. I don’t provide gratification. It’s a lose-lose situation.

They may think they hold on to the winning end of the stick, they think they will manage to bring me back to continue production, but they didn’t. It was a compromise - “a compromise that in retrospect satisfies nobody.”

Of course I am unhappy, I am discontented. I can’t be sure if I am depressed or angry, but I doubt it. Maybe I am afraid, I wouldn’t know.

Guess they are right, I need somebody to talk to.