4am

jon laa wrote on April 20th, 2009, 4:03 am

it is going to be 4 in a while and i am still up awake playing some stupid game in facebook. they are addictive only when you have somebody who has a better than score than you.

speaking of which, i am reminded by how warped our society is - if he can do it, you can too. i am not agreeable with that. as much as we are all born the same, naked and most probably normal, i believe we come with different inclinations.

like playing games is just not my forte.

which kinda means it is perfectly justifiable for one to not do what two can.

the person whom i removed from my msn, not to his knowing i believe, told me it is my loss if i forget who he is. i would think the establishment of any kind of relationship with him is probably my loss. and at this moment, i don’t think i wanna befriend some lost soul who thinks he has something to offer when there probably isn’t. i can’t be sure there isn’t, i need to keep room for benefit of doubt.

there is this sudden epiphany about love. like how it is about being perpetually and not just the beginning or the end. and how it is never rational and probably means you gotta be dumb in order to love, because of all the long suffering and whatever not.

tsk tsk.

i need to get some food before turning in for the night.