Bakes!

by jon laa on March 7th, 2009

Today is peach cake day, for huishan. Be jealous carrie. Meeting her later for some mugging session which I am in great need of. I may have to do more on sunday as well, kinda sucks.

Now that I remembered, today is friday. Grr!

Did a 10k run yesterday. The rest did 9.1k. The extra 900m was because I missed my turn so I ended up running to holland village and back to margaret drive instead of turning straight into queensway. It feels much longer than 900m, honestly. And got a tummy ache which sent me to the loo at gleneagles A&E, no less. Bet I earned myself stares aplenty, but I don’t care.

Following mugging session with huishan is a 20k run at east coast park. I may have to do with 10k but we will see how. In all honesty, I feel like skipping. It is so bloody far away. But I need to clog my 30k. Oh well!

Back to practise and peach cake. Once again, be jealous carrie!

Pfft!

by jon laa on March 5th, 2009

My grandpa just fell in the bathroom and you could say he almost smash his head. I suppose he fell, given he was dripping blood all over. It is quite amazing how much blood you can get out of old people, I am sure I wouldn’t bleed as much given I had the same fall.

Everything at home is a little intense now. I am sure we know my stubborn, strong and way over confident old man at home is going through some kind of ego smashing moments now. Looking at how he is reduced to moments of silence with his blood dripping and having everybody attending to him in the house is just incredibly melodramatic.

And through this, I realise, there are only some things that adults can do. I am sorry. But I am trapped between having to do what is best and having to spare a thought of his ego, I have an inclination for the latter. No, I love him. But I know he would prefer to be left alone for him to help himself, as much as I would. But again, we know.

Once again I am back into my own room to deal with the surge in emotions. I will like to think I have a long way to go before I reach his stage of old age and helplessness. Nonetheless, he is a remarkable man who has done wonders incomparable to what I have witnessed and perhaps will witness again.

Pity him, not.

Backdate

by jon laa on March 3rd, 2009

There are little moments in life that are quite noteworthy.

Like pasta six.

Damn. I am contented with just that.

Disturbance

by jon laa on March 3rd, 2009

Either the computer or the modem should go out of the window. They are such impossible technology which somewhat gets to you like how a vortex would. Extremely disturbing.

And so I need to calm myself down to get some work done. On the bright side, I am glad I managed to cancel violin class. It means I have some extra time at hand to procrastinate until I get work done. I have intentions to finish the entire book by the weekend and it is pretty difficult to get down to it. There is just so much distraction that it is impossible. I need to get out of home to get it done. Even the library is distracting with their books, scores and many wonders. Grr!

Been spending a lot more time on facebook than usual, looking at pictures and looking at people whom I do not know. I guess different people have different calling, it is amazing how similar people can lead lives at the extremes of the spectrum and yet have the same degree of gratification and fun. Of course the previous statement is superficially assumed. But that superficiality is nonetheless significant. The contentment within it suggests that they are in their own extremes of the spectrum by choice, it is heartening.

Next week is going to be different, so is the week after next. I’m just hoping I can get some kind of routine into place. Being human, I am a sucker for routine. To have something to wake up to and something to end the day off with. The bits of tasks-at-end and abundance of procrastination, distraction, is definitely not striking any form of equilibrium. Dio!

Darkness

by jon laa on March 1st, 2009

I met timothy for three consecutive, days which is something new. Did a free foot scan at adidas with him, which was evidently way inaccurate, and found out that I am an overpronator and flat footed. Oh, whatever! Nothing new, in my opinion.

They did their usual sales talk, the rubbish kind, and I eventually shut down while tim was heavily engrossed in what they had to offer. The difference between us is that he is always willing to give others a chance to listen while I am perpetually skeptical of what others have to say.

There were plans to run at macritchie reservoir at 7am later but were subsequently cancelled because the runner’s leg was not well and I am not exactly in the best of all shape to run any further. Either way, it is some massive run event so there are still gonna be people running, none of whom I know.

Postponed lesson from morning to afternoon, thankfully, even though I was already awake. Felt much better to be given the liberty of time to nap a little more. Today was somewhat like technical, like a visit to a technician. Lots of vocalises that were new. There was some discovery of new sounds, pleasant ones, which I cannot repeat at will. Gonna work on it.

The second day since I last fiddled. Feeling really tired, and lesson is gonna be on wednesday so I’d better work harder over monday and tuesday. I think I’ll need to rest tomorrow, I don’t think I am going to teach. My student is sick and I hope he stays sick so I wouldn’t be the one cancelling on him.

Unsaid

by jon laa on March 1st, 2009

It seems like I haven’t been writing for the past few days but there is actually an unpublished draft. It is difficult to explain why some entries sound more right than the others and why some days are better writing days.

Been running for the past three days and clocked a total of 29/30km in the week. Probably 30, but at least 29. Doesn’t matter. Probably will be running more next week and will be doing more crazy routes, which may just rob both my legs away. Been running with timothy, it was actually my idea but he is ten times more excited about running than me which is good. It’s always good to have a motivation to cling onto, even if it is an external one.

My legs are obviously in a state if disbelief, maybe a little annoyed or confused at the degree of abuse they have been through. Nonetheless, sports massage are in plans. $30 per hour, which is cheap but from all I’ve heard it’s all about pain.

Enough for now, I have run enough for the week and will be probably taking a break till monday or tuesday, and will be looking at clocking a good 35km.

Gonna head to class before coming back to take a nap. Probably do putting aside some time at night to fiddle.