Unnecessary

by jon laa on March 19th, 2009

Bought a memory stick and collected it from tim, it freaking works. I can snap thousand over picture

57

by jon laa on March 16th, 2009

Didn’t hit the target of sub 55 minutes, ended up with about 57 minutes. I am still waiting for race results to be out. Most people exceeded their targets by a minute or so, probably due to the amount of runners and the crowd.

The logistic wasn’t all that great, people cheated because it is a two way route and they can do an earlier u turn if they want to cheat. I didn’t witness any but most of the runners seemed to have. There were so many runners that the initial pace after flag off was probably a damn slow walking pace, which I suppose was a total waste of time for most people.

Nearly everybody complained about the sun, too blazing. I love it though. I would think it slowed me down for the first half but I got used to it by the second.

I probably need to do some moderate distance intervals. My first half was a total struggle but was at ease for the second. But I guess the struggling bit at the first half did significantly tire me out to affect the timing. My legs were so damn heavy.

Enough of those, I am suppose to do some kind of 5-day plan. My plan for the week is to do pull ups and push ups daily, instead of heading to the gym. Maybe going to try that for about two weeks.

No more races till may, which mean I can do less runs. There isn’t anything I will like to try out besides for intervals. Did my first 20k two fridays back and did my first race already. Probably going to take it a little easier, to increase mileage poco a poco. The 20k totally took a toll on me and I dont see the point of hurrying into longer distances at this point in time.

Of course I still need my new shoes and shoulder rest.

Pwnd

by jon laa on March 15th, 2009

The paper was a complete disaster, I don’t think I will make it to pass. Even if I do, it isn’t going to be a big deal. Probably will have to receive lots of sympathy marks to pass on the dot. But we will see, you will never know. But failing is an idea, it kinda puts you into place and provides some reality check.

10km run tomorrow and I am still wide awake. Must be the terrible habits of sleeping late. Did some carbo-loading which obviously didn’t work because I am already hungry now. But there are runners who can load the night before and make it for the run without having breakfast. I can barely make it through the night.

Going to attempt to rest again.

Please, give me a sub 55. I don’t need another disaster.

Finally got a memory card for my camera, after like how long. I will check how long has it been when I write again. Didn’t make the purchase myself though, tim bought it for me while he was at the IT fair.

There is chamber concert tomorrow in vch and hoffman on tuesday. Going to grab some scores from esplanade library, and maybe CDs if I get a chance. I need to check out shoulder rests too.

Finally moved on to shifting and I am already tired before I tried. I am dying for the shoulder rest, the old one has disintegrated. Picked up a few bows on display the other day and found out how amazingly different the touch and feel of a wooden stick can be.

Been unsettled still, going to draft out my five-day plans tomorrow.

Good bye world. Be the kind to me, if you please, when I am up in the morning.

Do you think you have time for little india, sn? Maybe we can check out pasar lane too. I am dying for some good indian rojak and am thinking of dropping by tekka market to grab some supplies to sustain my appetite. And my camera is going to be functional then. Perfecto.

Dearest

by jon laa on March 11th, 2009

Perhaps I happened to be one of the new people he met out of his hobby to meet new people. Unlike himself, I embraced him with myself when I met him only to realise later we are better off living our own lives. But of course, he has been amazing and I wouldn’t hesitate to meet him for a cup of coffee to catch up on the new wonders in his life.

But to put things into perspective, I hate questions like how is life for you or how are you. If I don’t know you enough, I will say it has been fine. That is almost never a lie. If you know me well enough, I will have updates for you and probably have enough updates to send you going are-you-serious?. That isn’t the most desirable response. And for some reasons, I have been amazing people with my erraticism.

There is this recent epiphany. Like I realise I had enough of wandering and think I have enough of my days of folly. But is difficult lah.

By the way, I got new scores to work on. And I haven’t exactly explored them. Been highly unmotivated and I need to chart my plan for next week out, terrible.

On the bright side, I sang today. Not a lot, but enough. Got more stuff to work on.

Maybe going for a run tomorrow too. But I need to rest my legs. Grr!

Don’t even mention theory to me. Just don’t.

Bubbling

by jon laa on March 10th, 2009

There is this bit of frustration bubbling within. Like how the tenor aptly put it, “we’d all really be better people if we had more unrushed time together with our loved ones.”

I haven’t entirely experienced the with our loved ones part, but I definitely need more unrushed time. There isn’t the strength within me to go slow, to take the time I need and let myself develop into what I see in myself and what others see in me. It is difficult because in this pressing society, it is about how much you have achieved on papers. Extremely unfortunately, I have fallen into the trap.

But I figured it will be a good lesson. I am exceedingly glad that that is only a fragment of my life. I have to say that I have great awesome teachers who decide what is best for me. Of course there are some who don’t, but they aren’t anywhere less than good.

Moving on from all that, this week isn’t any different. There isn’t enough practice, I need to work on it.

Uproar

by jon laa on March 9th, 2009

Perhaps it is emma kirkby’s upcoming concert that spurred this interest in baroque music. And I caught on the baroque bug, which is pleasantly surprising.

I attempt from love’s sickness to fly…

The crackers ended up tasting quite bad after being left overnight.

But olive oil is amazing, still. Made pasta and I am dying for more.

Unleavened

by jon laa on March 9th, 2009

I am damn impressed by the taste of the olive oil crackers. I’d rather call it unleavened bread. I guess the difference is the thickness. If you are skillful to thin the dough out enough, it can get more crunchy than what you get in a bag of potato chips.

Either way, it took longer than expected. I guess it has more to do with that it takes up a lot of space and there wasn’t enough space for more than three.

Too lazy to share the recipe, but it is so amazing. I went into a daze when I realised how good something it was. Even though it is technically only flour, water and olive oil.

Unsatisfiable

by jon laa on March 8th, 2009

I had two slices of bread to go with two slices of ham. Now I am still hungry and my stomach just freaking growled. It is already 2:35am and I am still kept awake by the constant hunger and mosquitoes. Mind you, I am tired.

Now, I am going to find more food and hope the hunger eventually ceases.

Probably will take a picture of the basil plant which is growing miraculously well. My dad is the one with green hands and it is amazing!

Past

by jon laa on March 7th, 2009

Meeting up with huishan yesterday was hilarious. Okay, that is a given.

Then jovi came by today and asked for dinner, at past 10:30pm. I would have agreed if he was a little more indulging. Leaving the comfort of my home, seat is just too much a price to pay to meet somebody I haven’t seen for the past two or three years. Especially one who is of no significant value and who is oh-how-indebted to me.

Like the usual, I had to ask my fill of questions. Grades, sex, and such. None of which he answered, which was a turn off. I hate unanswered questions.

And so, the question of whether jovi had sex with chuan min is remains a question.

But being jovi, he obviously hinted that he had. No confirmation though.

Then again, who cares?

Putting everything in retrospect, he is still one of those people I met who was pretty insightful. I guess I wouldn’t have seen his side of the society if not because of him. And honestly, it is amazing bittersweet.

There is no perfect world, we live with what we have.

Looking at his nick, which asks if anybody needs a full/part time job, suggests that he has something up his sleeves. Maybe he fell to multi-level marketing.

Bye! The second dosage of peach cake is in the oven!

Faltering

by jon laa on March 7th, 2009

Probably brain is almost gone. I cannot figure why I didn’t post the last entry when it was well ready to be published.

Did meet huishan, after some brouhaha but ended up talking about those old school days, instead of studying, again. I mean, we have some good encounters to recollect and at the rate we go, we probably will never forget them. But it isn’t entirely a bad thing. I don’t think I met anybody more amusing and amazing as them, and don’t think I will ever. But again, I could be wrong.

It is strange to be running with a lady old enough to be my mother. Of course she didn’t look anything like her age but there is doubt she is old enough to be my mother, her daughter is 24 and son is my age. Either way, she completed the run before me while the other runners and I stopped for coconut juice. Did talk about lots of stuff. Like academic, parenting, passion, which are really issues that I have strong opinions on. I wouldn’t say we are on agreement on everything but we could see each other’s perspective and that is already commendable.

Did a 20k run, survived. Managed it in 2:30, which, in all honestly, isn’t that bad. It is the first 20k and we were talking almost throughout the run. It takes some time to get use to talking while running, I couldn’t exactly do it last time.

And I drowned myself in a super big gulp. Last week’s big gulp was barely enough. Either way, I finished it with little problems and didn’t have any repercussions to it yet. I guess drinking four liters of water a day makes a big difference to your water capacity.

Gonna take it easy next week. Did sign up for a race on impulse for next sunday. Feels safe now, if I can complete a 20k I will be able to do a 10k. I strongly believe so.

No, life isn’t about running now and will never be. There are reasons why I run but will always let myself sink to last person. There’s just little sense of achievement whether I complete the run, did take a break or complete last. Nonetheless, there’s this influx of information, experiences and encounters that I never had. Obviously there’s lot to rant about.

But let’s put it in perspective, I am not a runner. I run.

ETA: I am not sure what I am baking next week. May try out a cheesecake if there is good recipes online. Fairly interested in pies and tarts too. Do suggest recipes, or blogs with credible ones. By the way, there is enough dough for another peach cake.